Part 1: I am a 23 year old male in the United States and I am sexually aroused by "diapers". Not in a pedophilic kinda way, but I'm aroused by wearing diapers and by pictures/videos/etc. of others wearing them. The desire to "wear" has been floating in my mind for years. I first recall it coming up when I was 12 years old or so (maybe before). I wasn't sexually abused or anything. No sort of "childhood trauma" or anything of the sort, I think it first arose from curiosity. I mean I wet the bed when I was younger and remember having to wear training pants, but all kids go through that at somepoint, right?
Part 2: I grew up in a Christian home (don't let me lose you here. If you don't by into Christianity or religion or anything just bear with me). I was raised going to church and very active in my youth group all throughout middle school, high, and into college. I became a "believer" around the age of 11 although I may have not fully realized what that meant. At that point on I had dedicated my life and the way I lived to God and based how I might live my life off of biblical standards and things I had learned in church. Going to college I kinda fell away from God in my first two semesters, experimenting with alcohol and drugs. Some people may argue that's not a "bad thing" but for me it was and it was ruining my life. I was figuratively "slapped in the face" by an old friend who talked me out of the dark road I was walking and decided to come back on board with God. I then began to take my faith more seriously, got involved in campus ministry, and to this day am still actively serving in my church as well as pursing personal ministry in my community.
The Dilemma: So here is the thing I've always fought to answer (aka avoided looking for an answer). Is my desire to wear diapers a bad thing? Is it unnatural to be aroused by this? Does this go along with my Christian faith? Can I still wear diapers AND be a Christian? ...These questions made me so uncomfortable and honestly ashamed of myself. I couldn't really figure this out! I searched everywhere online and I couldn't find a good answer. Some people argued it wasn't an issue, while others argued that I needed to rid myself of it. But no one could back up their points.
I am very familiar with the Bible (hopefully this doesn't sound too self-righteous) and it's teachings. While searching for an answer I was unable to find any person that brought up sound Biblical advice on the so called "issue". So, I sought it out on my own.
The Point: So what's the point of this blog? Well, I'm 99.99% sure that there is someone else out there like me. Searching hard for the answer and stumbling along the way. My hope for this blog is that amidst my search for the answer through scripture and Biblical values, I can help someone else find the same answer I've been looking for all these years.
The following discussion probably won't be comfortable, and I might say something that offends you. You might not agree with my opinion or interpretation of the scriptures, BUT I encourage you to hear me out and CHECK IT OUT FOR YOURSELF. Read the Bible, study it yourself and see what God shows you.
If you aren't a Christian, I'm glad you're here. I'm not here to convert you or shove the Bible down your throat. I AM here to to talk or answer any questions you may have. Hopefully I can at least point you in the right direction.
Thanks for visiting and thanks for reading this far! I hope and pray that every person that comes in contact with this blog is positively affected by the words here (myself included). I can't wait to see what comes from this blog and the relationships formed because of it.
Sincerely,
A Recovering Diaper Lover
